Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Day 68

Well I am grateful that each day is getting a bit better than the day before.  Also too, tomorrow will be my official first meeting as leader at TOPS.  I have prepared my material (hand outs) for the ladies.  While planning and choosing I came to realize that I need a refresher course.  I know quite a bit what I need to do to lose weight, trying to stay motivated, etc. but looking at the material again and reviewing it, is what I need.  I guess it is to reinforce the rules?...what is right??..Or I should say what needs to be done to achieve my goals with weight or even with life in itself……if that makes any sense.   So with this week I have my guide line chart of BMR, self motivating paper to put on the fridge, which states “Take care of your body.  It’s the only place you have to live. --- Jim Rohm.  It is so true….we really need to take care of ourselves and stop that damage that we have done for so long.  Oh and my third hangout is about finding the time.  Which for myself I really really need right now especially everything going on with Pop. 

Oh and as for Pop, well when I saw him on Sunday he seemed to be getting back to himself again, which is good but then I went to see him yesterday and then POW he seemed he was going in the opposite direction.  He is so angry with the place, angry with the nurses, angry with the physical therapist, angry with the assistant staff.  He is telling me that they don’t do anything, don’t answer him, and don’t help him.  So I need to investigate a bit further and see what exactly is going on.  I feel so bad for him because I truly believe he thinks he is going back to his independent living and not that it is certain but looking promising that he will need assistance, especially when it comes to his insulin.  I am trying to explain to him and trying to prepare him for the upcoming but I don’t know if he is really listening to me or just doesn’t want to acknowledge it. This is something that I need to discuss with my sister.

On good note is that I was speaking to a dear friend yesterday, actually it was her birthday, and well she was asking about everything that is going on.  As we were finishing our conversation, she came out and asked me if I would like to go with her to her vacation house next weekend.  She and her husband have a vacation house in Delaware and her husband has to work but she was going down to stock up her freezer and stuff because they will be going there just about every weekend.  She was insisting for me to go, that we would have fun and it would be a great opportunity to catch up with each other and many more reasons.  So I thought about it and yes I am going…..I am so looking forward to just getting away with, talking with someone else about life and what’s going on.  One thing for sure as they say, you can’t pick your family but you certainly can pick your friends.  She is like a sister to me and I am so grateful for her friendship.

Wow…time is moving and I need to get back to work.

Until later……………


  1. I'm envious of your weekend with your girlfriend, it sounds like a ton of fun :) Glad you told her yes it will be just what you need I think :) Glad you're feeling better. As for your Pop well just know that he will be ok no matter what happens, we all adjust to what we have to adjust to.

  2. I am sure your first meeting as leader is going to be great. You seem like you are prepared and I think sometimes being a little worried means that you care and that they are going to have a great time because you care so much. I am a little jealous as well about your weekend with your girlfriend... sounds like you both will have so much fun.