Wowzee it is Wednesday, hump day. I feel pretty good.
Oh, one thing that I forgot to mention is that last week at TOPS, I lost 4.75 pounds......I have finally made it to 50 pounds lost, actually it is 53 pounds. I am hoping that I stayed the same or possibly lose a bit more. Reason being because of the past weekend. I know I went overboard with eating. But this is a first for me that on Monday I got right back on track. Oh and also with my weekend I have now connected with my dear friend's daughter. She is morbidly obese and we had a wonderful talk, so I have agreed to help her as she would help me. We were able to relate so much between us because of her being so young. I have NEVER been thin, average weight or whatever you may describe it. Actually the weight that I am now is the weight when I got pregnant with my son, who will be 29 years old this coming September. Once I get down another good 30 pounds I will then be at the weight I got married, and in my heart I will get there. Actually, when I do I am going to try my wedding dress on to see how it fits. That will be awesome to do.
Oh and last night I had a doctor's appointment, it was really a check up to see how my blood pressure is, well it was 120/70 which is much better than it was six weeks ago at 140/90. The doctor is well pleased as I am too. Only thing is that he wants me to stay on the medication and I have another six weeks until I see him again. Oh, and the doc was very happy with my weight. I truly couldn't remember what my weight was six weeks ago, well I was down another 15 pounds. I really don't think that was right but whatever. I told him don't expect another 15 pounds but do expect some more weight will be off. Also too I got some blood work done. I mention to him that my sister got a check up and blood work done, and it showed that she is now borderline with diabetes, which is what my dad has. So he thought it would be good to check it out, I certainly hope that it comes back good.
Oh and my girlfriend, God Bless her, she is just too too sweet, well she called me last night to see how I am doing. Gosh, I am just so bless with such caring people. Unfortunately she is not feeling too well, but it was a nice chat.
Also too I went and saw Pop and he really seems that he may be getting a little tiny bit better each day. I pray that this continues.
So with all that is going on, I can honestly say and feel that things just may be getting a tad better. I am truly grateful and just feeling good again.
There is a rainbow after the storm.......
Until later..............
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Day 81
Wow it is Tuesday already....what happened to the weekend? Well, mine was perfect. I went to the Delaware beach and it was awesome. I am so grateful for my dear friend. We had a lovely long long talk on the way down and the same thing on the way home. It was just wonderful. I over did it with food but in my mind that is life. You need to enjoy things. While out with dinner I had a fantastic drink. It was called a Dreamsicle. It was rum with orange juice with ice and vanilla ice cream. So smooth it was. Then my second one was a Strawberry smooth. Same concept but with strawberries. Yum...Yum.
On Saturday, her daughter, son-in-law and grandson came down. Again a great conversation with her daughter. Then we were off to the beach. Beautiful day there too, actually there was a wedding going on, just beautiful.
Once home on Sunday, my kids came over and hubby grilled and we ate outside on the patio. Hubby did buy some desert and yes I did have some.
But on Monday I am right back on the band wagon. So all is good.
I visited Pop yesterday and he seems he is doing a lot better. Better meaning is that he is back somewhat to his complaining. Nothing can please this man. I came to find out that the doctor ordered a cortisone shot for his knee. He said that his leg is so so but I can tell he is doing a lot better. I also noticed that he is getting a little bit more strength back. I am hoping that maybe in a few weeks he will be getting out of re-hab.
Tonight I have a doctors appointment. I am going back to see if my blood pressure has improved. I certainly hope so because I really don't want to be on another medication. I know I am on my synthroid for life but I don't want to add to that list. Just keeping my fingers crossed. Also too I am wondering if I will show a loss from the last time. I lose very slowly so I don't know but looking back on myfitnesspal.com it would be great to see another five pounds. Just finished with my lunch so all is good.
Also I am looking forward to the weekend again. They say that it is suppose to be really good again weather wise. Hubby happens to be off on Friday and he asked me if I want him to help getting my master bedroom back together again. It would be great if we do get it done, but I still want to do a little bit more of painting. I just received thru the mail these really cool plaques to put above my bed since I got already got rid of the headboard. I think it will look cool. I saw online an idea of where you paint the opposite color as a box then place the wall decor in the box, they referred to it as a shadow box. So that is what I want to do before the furniture goes back in......we'll see what happens.
Well, lunch is almost over and I need to get back to my reports.
Until later..........
On Saturday, her daughter, son-in-law and grandson came down. Again a great conversation with her daughter. Then we were off to the beach. Beautiful day there too, actually there was a wedding going on, just beautiful.
Once home on Sunday, my kids came over and hubby grilled and we ate outside on the patio. Hubby did buy some desert and yes I did have some.
But on Monday I am right back on the band wagon. So all is good.
I visited Pop yesterday and he seems he is doing a lot better. Better meaning is that he is back somewhat to his complaining. Nothing can please this man. I came to find out that the doctor ordered a cortisone shot for his knee. He said that his leg is so so but I can tell he is doing a lot better. I also noticed that he is getting a little bit more strength back. I am hoping that maybe in a few weeks he will be getting out of re-hab.
Tonight I have a doctors appointment. I am going back to see if my blood pressure has improved. I certainly hope so because I really don't want to be on another medication. I know I am on my synthroid for life but I don't want to add to that list. Just keeping my fingers crossed. Also too I am wondering if I will show a loss from the last time. I lose very slowly so I don't know but looking back on myfitnesspal.com it would be great to see another five pounds. Just finished with my lunch so all is good.
Also I am looking forward to the weekend again. They say that it is suppose to be really good again weather wise. Hubby happens to be off on Friday and he asked me if I want him to help getting my master bedroom back together again. It would be great if we do get it done, but I still want to do a little bit more of painting. I just received thru the mail these really cool plaques to put above my bed since I got already got rid of the headboard. I think it will look cool. I saw online an idea of where you paint the opposite color as a box then place the wall decor in the box, they referred to it as a shadow box. So that is what I want to do before the furniture goes back in......we'll see what happens.
Well, lunch is almost over and I need to get back to my reports.
Until later..........
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Day 76
If anything I am grateful that I am feeling somewhat better than yesterday. I don't know what happened, Tuesday night around 8 pm I felt so tired and so cold, that I told hubby that I was going to bed. Well once in bed the pains in the stomach started, with a headache and most of all the chills. I just couldn't get warm. I think I finally feel asleep after midnight. Then in the morning started the bathroom issues. No way was I going to work. Honestly the only thing that I was thinking about was this coming weekend. My dear friend has a summer house in Delaware and she is going down this weekend, unfortunately without her husband, he has to work. So she happened to give me a call to see how I was doing with everything that is going on and then proceeded to ask me to come with her and get away. The thought of it was divine. I am just hoping now that I will feel much better by tomorrow. I was going to stay home again today but thought it would be best to push through and come to work. The only thing that is really bothering me today is my body. Feels like I have been beaten up or something. Everything just aches. I thought maybe because I was in bed all day but, well I don't know.
Tonight is TOPS and truthfully I just want to go and get weighed and that's it. I do have some handouts but I know I will keep it brief. The only consolation of being sick is that you usually lose weigh, certainly not the way I want to do it.
With being sick yesterday, the re-hab called and said that they needed to take Pop back to the hospital, because he sugar was way too low. I know the nurse didn't like it but I told her that she must call my sister, that I was just too sick to do anything. You could tell she was giving me a hard time, like saying, are you telling me that you can't call her? ....so you are saying that "I" need to call your sister?....just wait until I see her.... Anyhow the hospital got his sugar leveled and brought him back to re-hab. Mush later in the afternoon I was talking to my sister, and she asked if his sugars are monitored, why are they dropping so low....nurse responded that Pop is non-compliant, meaning that they give him his insulin shot but when given his food he won't eat. I just don't know what to do with him. Part of me feels that he is giving up on life.
Well I better get started with my work. I hope the day goes quickly because all I can think of right now is my bed which I so much want to be in.
Until later...........
Tonight is TOPS and truthfully I just want to go and get weighed and that's it. I do have some handouts but I know I will keep it brief. The only consolation of being sick is that you usually lose weigh, certainly not the way I want to do it.
With being sick yesterday, the re-hab called and said that they needed to take Pop back to the hospital, because he sugar was way too low. I know the nurse didn't like it but I told her that she must call my sister, that I was just too sick to do anything. You could tell she was giving me a hard time, like saying, are you telling me that you can't call her? ....so you are saying that "I" need to call your sister?....just wait until I see her.... Anyhow the hospital got his sugar leveled and brought him back to re-hab. Mush later in the afternoon I was talking to my sister, and she asked if his sugars are monitored, why are they dropping so low....nurse responded that Pop is non-compliant, meaning that they give him his insulin shot but when given his food he won't eat. I just don't know what to do with him. Part of me feels that he is giving up on life.
Well I better get started with my work. I hope the day goes quickly because all I can think of right now is my bed which I so much want to be in.
Until later...........
Monday, May 7, 2012
Day 73
Well, back to Mondays. Again gloomy day today but if anything, according to the weather forecast it should be nice this weekend. Sometimes I think I am such a little kid by heart. Today also starts my four day work week for the summer.....WOOHOO. Now this is what I "LIKE". It is a shame that it isn't all the time and for everyone. After this week too, NO MORE AUDITORS.....double WOOHOO.
Hubby really like the new recipe cake....it was very good, so definitely a keeper. Now I want to look up some new recipes for the grill. I really like ka-bobs, so I will start with that. Also too with my three day weekends, I am hoping to figure out a date, I am in the mood to have a small party. I think that is what I really need to really boost me out of my funky mood. Something small and sweet, nothing overboard, just a nice time with lots of laughter with some dear friends.
Just finished my breakfast, oatmeal and now ready to drink my 32 ounces of tea. Got lots to do, with lots of reports.
Need to get moving.
Until later............
Hubby really like the new recipe cake....it was very good, so definitely a keeper. Now I want to look up some new recipes for the grill. I really like ka-bobs, so I will start with that. Also too with my three day weekends, I am hoping to figure out a date, I am in the mood to have a small party. I think that is what I really need to really boost me out of my funky mood. Something small and sweet, nothing overboard, just a nice time with lots of laughter with some dear friends.
Just finished my breakfast, oatmeal and now ready to drink my 32 ounces of tea. Got lots to do, with lots of reports.
Need to get moving.
Until later............
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Day 72
Wow how fast the days go. As for Thursday, I am so grateful to god, I was quite surprised that I stayed the same, even with all the stress going on and all the ice cream eating, well I can only guess that stress really burns up loads of calories. I am somewhat back on board. I was planning yesterday to go shopping for my food, such as fruits and Arnold thins breads and such but didn't go until today.
Made a cake for hubby which he likes this one. I got the recipe from pinterest. I am beginning to like that site, it has many categories to choose from.
So yesterday I just did more cleaning and the usually wash. So boring......
Today it felt good to get up early, bathed, got dress and went to church. Afterwards did shopping, came home and packed a few goodies for Pop and went to go see him. They seem to have finally leveled his sugar but now he is so weak and in pain from his leg. He does go to therapy but I don't know if he is improving. Just watching him sit in the wheelchair, just sitting there so limp and hardly moving. Even his appetite has gone from the usually high to so low. While I was there he received lunch and didn't even want to eat. I encourage him and he did eat some. I can see he is getting depressed more and more each day. I did talk with his doctor office on Friday and I requested that his primary needs to go and see him. The re-hab has a doctor but he needs his. I understand their regulations and such but he needs a more stronger type of med for his pain in his legs. Right now all that they are giving him is Tylenol. It hurts so much to see him trying to move. He is losing strength, that he couldn't even pull himself up more in the chair. That the nurse and I had to assist him. So hopefully tomorrow I will call the office to see when the doctor is going to see him. He was happy that I brought him some flowers. Pop has always loved flowers. Years ago he would try anything to grow. He loved his vegetable garden, especially tomatoes. I remember it would sometimes drive my mom nuts with all the tomatoes he grew. Gosh I miss her so much.
So tomorrow I need to go to Pops apartment and do some wash and get Pop some clean clothes.
As for the weather, right now it really sucks. Usually I don't care if it is muggy, cloudy or whatever. But these past few days, well I don't know maybe the humidity or whatever, is really effecting my leg. It is so painful, making it really hard to walk. Usually I can walk it through and deal with it but today I had to take some medication for the pain and aching going up and down my leg. Usually in the morning when I first wake up it is not that bad but these past days I am in agony. I certainly hope this passes soon.
Reading someone else's blog about how she went for a nice long walk, well I envy her. I so much would love that but right now I can only do a block or so and I need to sit down and rub my knee and leg. If anything I pray that it will ease by next weekend, I don't want to be the reason to hold anyone back. Even though I know my girlfriend will wait and comfort me, I don't want that. I will make sure I bring my meds. I am so looking forward to this.
Well need to clean up a bit in the kitchen and get my clothes ready for work.
Until later.................
Made a cake for hubby which he likes this one. I got the recipe from pinterest. I am beginning to like that site, it has many categories to choose from.
So yesterday I just did more cleaning and the usually wash. So boring......
Today it felt good to get up early, bathed, got dress and went to church. Afterwards did shopping, came home and packed a few goodies for Pop and went to go see him. They seem to have finally leveled his sugar but now he is so weak and in pain from his leg. He does go to therapy but I don't know if he is improving. Just watching him sit in the wheelchair, just sitting there so limp and hardly moving. Even his appetite has gone from the usually high to so low. While I was there he received lunch and didn't even want to eat. I encourage him and he did eat some. I can see he is getting depressed more and more each day. I did talk with his doctor office on Friday and I requested that his primary needs to go and see him. The re-hab has a doctor but he needs his. I understand their regulations and such but he needs a more stronger type of med for his pain in his legs. Right now all that they are giving him is Tylenol. It hurts so much to see him trying to move. He is losing strength, that he couldn't even pull himself up more in the chair. That the nurse and I had to assist him. So hopefully tomorrow I will call the office to see when the doctor is going to see him. He was happy that I brought him some flowers. Pop has always loved flowers. Years ago he would try anything to grow. He loved his vegetable garden, especially tomatoes. I remember it would sometimes drive my mom nuts with all the tomatoes he grew. Gosh I miss her so much.
So tomorrow I need to go to Pops apartment and do some wash and get Pop some clean clothes.
As for the weather, right now it really sucks. Usually I don't care if it is muggy, cloudy or whatever. But these past few days, well I don't know maybe the humidity or whatever, is really effecting my leg. It is so painful, making it really hard to walk. Usually I can walk it through and deal with it but today I had to take some medication for the pain and aching going up and down my leg. Usually in the morning when I first wake up it is not that bad but these past days I am in agony. I certainly hope this passes soon.
Reading someone else's blog about how she went for a nice long walk, well I envy her. I so much would love that but right now I can only do a block or so and I need to sit down and rub my knee and leg. If anything I pray that it will ease by next weekend, I don't want to be the reason to hold anyone back. Even though I know my girlfriend will wait and comfort me, I don't want that. I will make sure I bring my meds. I am so looking forward to this.
Well need to clean up a bit in the kitchen and get my clothes ready for work.
Until later.................
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Day 69
I can't believe how quickly the day has gone by. Yet I will say that I feel good with work, I got loads done. I also handed in my PTO (paid time off) slip for the summer. I have decided to do the same thing as last year and take Fridays off for the summer. I just loved it. Mainly because of my so call projects with the house. See, with taking a full week off, I become too too sore with my legs and hip, doing such things as painting, pulling up old rugs, etc. So what I do is break it all done into sections and do so much on one long weekend, then another the following week. This way I am able to rest in between and build up my strength again. So with a little bit more to do, I will officially be done my second floor and will be working my way down to the first floor. Remember my goal is to be done by October 2013....that is when the wedding is.
Anyhow that’s it for me as for vacation. Also too I am hoping on Saturday I will go shopping and get "my" things that I "need" to stay focus. Such as my 100 calorie popcorn, I need to get plenty of fruit; also too I want to try a new recipe that I have found on pinterest. My daughter is trying very hard to get me hook onto.
As for tonight, well I kind of feel heavier, bloated, etc. Deep inside I really don't want to face the scale but it is necessary. I know what I have done and I am pushing real hard to straighten it.......and deep down I know I will.
Well time to get out of here.
Until later……..
Anyhow that’s it for me as for vacation. Also too I am hoping on Saturday I will go shopping and get "my" things that I "need" to stay focus. Such as my 100 calorie popcorn, I need to get plenty of fruit; also too I want to try a new recipe that I have found on pinterest. My daughter is trying very hard to get me hook onto.
As for tonight, well I kind of feel heavier, bloated, etc. Deep inside I really don't want to face the scale but it is necessary. I know what I have done and I am pushing real hard to straighten it.......and deep down I know I will.
Well time to get out of here.
Until later……..
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Day 68
Well I am grateful that each day is getting a bit better than the day before. Also too, tomorrow will be my official first meeting as leader at TOPS. I have prepared my material (hand outs) for the ladies. While planning and choosing I came to realize that I need a refresher course. I know quite a bit what I need to do to lose weight, trying to stay motivated, etc. but looking at the material again and reviewing it, is what I need. I guess it is to reinforce the rules?...what is right??..Or I should say what needs to be done to achieve my goals with weight or even with life in itself……if that makes any sense. So with this week I have my guide line chart of BMR, self motivating paper to put on the fridge, which states “Take care of your body. It’s the only place you have to live. --- Jim Rohm. It is so true….we really need to take care of ourselves and stop that damage that we have done for so long. Oh and my third hangout is about finding the time. Which for myself I really really need right now especially everything going on with Pop.
Oh and as for Pop, well when I saw him on Sunday he seemed to be getting back to himself again, which is good but then I went to see him yesterday and then POW he seemed he was going in the opposite direction. He is so angry with the place, angry with the nurses, angry with the physical therapist, angry with the assistant staff. He is telling me that they don’t do anything, don’t answer him, and don’t help him. So I need to investigate a bit further and see what exactly is going on. I feel so bad for him because I truly believe he thinks he is going back to his independent living and not that it is certain but looking promising that he will need assistance, especially when it comes to his insulin. I am trying to explain to him and trying to prepare him for the upcoming but I don’t know if he is really listening to me or just doesn’t want to acknowledge it. This is something that I need to discuss with my sister.
On good note is that I was speaking to a dear friend yesterday, actually it was her birthday, and well she was asking about everything that is going on. As we were finishing our conversation, she came out and asked me if I would like to go with her to her vacation house next weekend. She and her husband have a vacation house in Delaware and her husband has to work but she was going down to stock up her freezer and stuff because they will be going there just about every weekend. She was insisting for me to go, that we would have fun and it would be a great opportunity to catch up with each other and many more reasons. So I thought about it and yes I am going…..I am so looking forward to just getting away with, talking with someone else about life and what’s going on. One thing for sure as they say, you can’t pick your family but you certainly can pick your friends. She is like a sister to me and I am so grateful for her friendship.
Wow…time is moving and I need to get back to work.
Until later……………
Oh and as for Pop, well when I saw him on Sunday he seemed to be getting back to himself again, which is good but then I went to see him yesterday and then POW he seemed he was going in the opposite direction. He is so angry with the place, angry with the nurses, angry with the physical therapist, angry with the assistant staff. He is telling me that they don’t do anything, don’t answer him, and don’t help him. So I need to investigate a bit further and see what exactly is going on. I feel so bad for him because I truly believe he thinks he is going back to his independent living and not that it is certain but looking promising that he will need assistance, especially when it comes to his insulin. I am trying to explain to him and trying to prepare him for the upcoming but I don’t know if he is really listening to me or just doesn’t want to acknowledge it. This is something that I need to discuss with my sister.
On good note is that I was speaking to a dear friend yesterday, actually it was her birthday, and well she was asking about everything that is going on. As we were finishing our conversation, she came out and asked me if I would like to go with her to her vacation house next weekend. She and her husband have a vacation house in Delaware and her husband has to work but she was going down to stock up her freezer and stuff because they will be going there just about every weekend. She was insisting for me to go, that we would have fun and it would be a great opportunity to catch up with each other and many more reasons. So I thought about it and yes I am going…..I am so looking forward to just getting away with, talking with someone else about life and what’s going on. One thing for sure as they say, you can’t pick your family but you certainly can pick your friends. She is like a sister to me and I am so grateful for her friendship.
Wow…time is moving and I need to get back to work.
Until later……………
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