This past week has been busy and I am still busy for the rest of the week. Tonight I am going to get my hair done, need to wash away the gray again. I will mention though, as I am getting older those grays certainly appear much quicker. Then tomorrow I will be meeting with my daughter’s bridesmaids to start planning her bridal shower. I will admit it is fun looking up the so many different center pieces, shower favors, games, decorations and even some really different and cool gift ideas. I just want this shower to be a WOW type of a shower. Then on Thursday is my doctor appointment for my leg (final check up) then afterwards TOPS meeting. Saturday, hopefully I will be heading up to my nieces house for an Oktoberfest gathering. Mostly family and some friends, hope the weather is nice. Wow just reading all of this, well I just spent the entire week away…LOL
Today was difficult at lunch. We had our managers meeting re-scheduled and was placed in the time slot as lunchtime. So the company was kind enough to provide lunch, which may I add is very unusual but anyway was provided. I must admit this is usually the time I just lose my guard. Today was sandwiches, salad and of course desserts. So as I stood in line, I keep reminding myself to choose wisely, So I picked chicken salad sandwich, which was a half of a sandwich, took a little bit of sweet potato salad (which I may add is super, super delicious) and then stuffed the rest of my plate with the garden salad. I passed on the soda (which made me think about that) because I really don’t drink sugary drinks anymore. They are just too too sweet for me. So that was really easy. One thought of that I starting thinking then why can’t I pass on other foods? Why do I feel so tempted by fatten, loads of oil, mayonnaise, salted, items. Why do I crave this so much? How can I get myself to the point where I only want really healthy items? Like with the soda, I really cannot drink a regular soda. The sweetness hurts my teeth. I no longer like the carbonation in them; it makes me too gassy so why bother? I understand that these temptations will always be there but why is it so hard? I guess it probably came to mind when I did read before lunch this wonderful woman’s blog. Part of her blog mentioned about addicts with drugs, and alcohol. How it must be so hard for someone who is a recovering addict. Where does that strength come from? How can I get that strength? Why?
Because I am an addict………………