Unbelievable it has been a week since writing. It has been a busy week. But today is a great day; my baby girl’s 24th birthday is today. I just think back how the time flies.
I seemed to be saying that a lot lately. Then I look back and see of how much progress I have done. In total I see 60 pounds gone but at times I feel it should be more. Even with my meetings I tell the group slow and steady is the right pace but what is really the right pace. Funny with the weight coming off so slow I sometimes feel that I haven’t lost any weight at all. Don’t get me wrong I am seeing it especially with my clothes. People kind of tease me, ones that really know me, teasing me especially when I have to pin my pants at the waist so they don’t fall off of me. Also too I will admit it feels really good with the few new clothes that I have bought recently. I also wonder if I am eating really healthy. But when I look at my log I know I am but, well I just don’t know. I have heard many times with this much weight to lose; I should be dropping it off like crazy. But I still ponder about of how slow these pounds are coming off. Hopefully now with the knee doctor clearing me, and giving me a scrip for physical therapy I will hopefully begin an exercise plan. Maybe that will aid in the losing. Also too I do worry about the excess skin but am always telling myself I will cross that bridge when I get to it and I will not use that as an excuse to stop trying. But I still worry about it. Will I look worse? Worse than with all the weight on me?
Still I wonder………….