Just updating

I am taking some time out to update here a bit, plus taking a break.  It is crazy of how the time is just flying by.  As for this week, I am concentrating on my son’s surprise birthday party which is this coming Saturday.  I will be doing a lot of running around this week.  It is mostly shopping for the food and such.  Thank goodness I took Friday off, it is mostly to get majority of the cooking done.  My future daughter in law will be coming over once she is done work on Friday, so that will be a great help.

Saturday I went for my second fitting, the woman does a beautiful job.  The dress fits perfect.  I am still kind of shy about wearing a strapless gown, one thing I will say is that I am NOT taking off the jacket at all.  Meanwhile with all of this I have been wearing my shoes, trying to break them in.  But just to be safe I intend to go out and buy ballet slippers because being in those shoes the entire day, well, I really don’t think I will make it.

Well at TOPS on Thursday I am down another 1 ½ pounds.  I am so grateful for.  I just need to lose another two pounds and then I will be back to my lowest since starting with my new way of life.  My plan for this week is to continue my usual plan but I am investigating maybe going after another plan.  I have been reading and trying to get educated in low carb and low sugar.  I have been reading many other blogs and it seems to make a lot of sense.  I am just hoping I can do this.

Well break time is over; I need to finish dinner before Hubby gets home from work.  Plus I need to get things ready for work tomorrow.

Hope all is enjoying this gorgeous weather.  I just love the fall, it is beautiful here.  I just wish it would last a lot longer than just a month or so.

Until later….

Working on getting back the control

Lots of things going on.  First the wedding, it sure is getting close.  Only five weeks away.  Just trying to finish with the last minute touches.  My daughter is going nuts, not only with the wedding but she has a lot going on at work.  Of course it is making her miserable too.  I am just trying to keep her calm.  As for me, well, unfortunately a lot of other things are going on as well. Planning a surprise party for my son, he will be turning 30 and my future daughter in law really wanted to do something special.  I am just trying to get things in order.  But what is really bothering me is the changes at my work.  It really is playing on my mind.  Of course these changes have to do with me, at first I was quite angry, but with lots prayer and trying to analyze the situation, well I really have no choice but to accept it and move on.  Perhaps in another post I will explain more of what is going on and happening.

So with all of this I haven’t been good with my eating.  It has gotten out of control but I am back to journaling again, which I may add I really don’t like to do but it is necessary.  I get so mad with myself when I lose control.  And in this area, I am the one who has complete control and control is what I must get back.   Over the several weeks at TOPS I have been gaining, I am grateful though I did lose some of the extra gain last week on Thursday.  I am hoping to lose more this week too.

One thing that I did that I enjoyed was after church yesterday I went to the store and bought some fall flowers to put out in my garden.  I also got new batteries to replace the old ones in all of the solar lamps.  In the evening when the lights come on, well the garden just looks beautiful.  For the party, I intend to put tables and chairs out there.  I just have to pray that the day and evening are nice that the guests can go outdoors.  It is all in God’s hands.

Well the night just seems to zip by and it is time for me to get things together for tomorrow.

 

Until later…………..

 

Need better spirits

Wow seems funny how time just flies. 

Hubby and I had a wonderful time away.  Something that we certainly need to do more often.  Just talking, taking small walks, just enjoying our surroundings, just enjoying each other.  It was only for two days but it was great, definitely too short.

With that said, I told hubby that I really want more.  More time together, just doing simple things.  See, hubby is not one for going out, even just for a ride to a near by place.  I tell him it doesn’t have to be going out for dinner, just even the mall, just to the park, just something.  I just get tired being home most of the time by myself.  He works on the weekends and works long hours.  I do feel for him but I also tell him there is more in life than just work and home.  I just told him today before I left for church again of how I feel.  He said possibly in a couple of weeks, he will try to get off at least one day during the weekend.   I guess I just have to wait and see.

One thing that is keeping me busy is that my future daughter in law express about doing something special for my son.  He will be 30 in September, so with that we are planning a surprise 30^th birthday party here at my house for the end of September.  Of course it is just several weeks before my daughter’s wedding, nothing can be spaced out of course.  But all in all it is good.  I certainly hope we can pull it off surprising him.   So with that there is a lot of cleaning and prepping to be done.  Still haven’t figure out the menu, but in time will do.

Finally went back to TOPS on Thursday and I have gained.  So bummed out about it.  I know what I have done but trying to get out of this funk is hard.  I seem to be losing focus on me.  Also I just haven’t been feeling well.  Not saying that I am real sick or ill but just not myself lately.  Just been tired, slightly achy, so I have been going to bed a bit earlier than usual.  Not interested in anything.  Can’t seem to get myself up and going. Sometimes I wonder if this maybe a slight depression setting in? 

Yesterday I went for my first fitting for my dress for the wedding.  I also saw earrings that match perfectly with the dress, so I bought them.  The only thing I have left to get are my shoes, which I need by September 21, that is my second fitting. 

After church I went to see my dad.  I am so happy that he is in much better spirits these days.  It just makes it better to go see him.  He still has a great appetite, so I brought him a small breakfast sandwich and coffee.  He enjoyed it very much.

Trying a new recipe tonight. It is a taco casserole.  Ground meat with taco seasoning, Mexican shredded cheese, diced tomatoes, lettuce and crushed Doritos.  Once heated just serve with some sour cream.  Going to try to avoid most of the Doritos and have very little sour cream.  With it I may have a salad with it.  Hopefully it will be good.

The weather has been wonderful the last couple of days.  Absolutely gorgeous.  Maybe that is why I am a little down.  Beautiful weather and no where to go.  That is possibly the reason.

Not much more to say.

Hope everyone has a good Sunday.

Until later…………………

Finally going away

Well it has finally arrived, hubby and I are going away.  It has been so long, over ten years that we have gone away together.  Mainly because hubby would not leave our dog Max in a kennel.  True love for an animal.  But with our beloved Max gone, we will now have our time.

We missed him deeply.  He was a wonderful dog.

I will try to watch my eating and be sensible with it.  I am hoping to do some swimming.  That would be wonderful for my legs.

So I am off and running (running I wish) but I am off to have some nice R & R days.

Until later.....

Just moving along

Sometimes I wonder just where the time goes. If anything I am busy at work. Last weekend was really nice. I had a wonderful time with my girlfriend in Delaware. Her shore house is just heaven. The weather was beautiful and the scenery was fabulous. Our only problem was coming home late Sunday; we hit many pockets of heavy downpour rain. So it took us several hours to get home but we made it. So now I am just trying to get through this week. I am no longer off on Fridays, so this week will be an adjustment. Next week though, hubby and I will be going away for a few days. I am looking forward to it but I must admit it will kind of feel strange too. Reason being is that we have not taken a vacation or even went away overnight in many years because of our dog. Hubby would never put Max in a kennel, so therefore we never went away. Unfortunately, our beloved Max passed away last October; he was 13 ½ years old. Hubby took it very hard, that was his best buddy. I went to TOPS last Thursday and I am happy to say that I took 6 pounds off from the 7 pound gain. Keep in mind that I haven’t been there for four weeks. Just need to push and continue to lose that one pound and some. I will be going this Thursday but not next week due to going away with hubby. Things seem to be well. Even Pop seems to be in good spirits. I will be seeing him after work today. One thing I can say is that his appetite is good again. My sister and I were getting worried of how he was not eating. He was looking mighty fragile and so thin. Now it is the complete opposite. His face is fuller and he has gained some weight back. I also think he has come to the reality, that this is his life. He knows that he can no longer do the things that he used to and that he needs assistance. He now looks forward to the trips that the nursing home has once a month. He gets excited about them when you talk about them. Which I am so happy and grateful for. Well as they say “time to make the donuts” or I should say “time to make the money”. Got lots of work to get done. Until later…………..

Been keeping myself busy

All I can say is that 3 days being home goes mighty fast.  I kept myself busy though.  Friday started the day with cleaning and then in the evening I went to meet my daughter at the bridal shop to see her try on her wedding dress that came in.  Oh my just beautiful.  Next will be seeing the seamstress for proper fitting. 

Then Saturday was a big food shopping order, put away and starting baking items.  By the end of the day I finished making two loafs of low calorie banana bread. Made two dozen lemon-lime cupcakes.  Also made a low calorie cherry cheese Danish ring.  Now hubby has plenty of evening snacks to hold him for a couple of weeks.  I cut it all down and freeze it all.

As for today, well finished making two more loafs of banana bread, which I will be taking with me when I go to my girlfriend’s shore house next weekend, her daughter and her hubby and grandson will be there also.  Plus I made all my breakfast and lunches for the week, which is low calorie egg and cheese muffins, plus made French dip muffin meals, also made low calorie pumpkin bars.  Now I can choose and quickly pack my breakfasts and lunches for the week.  Now I am just finishing dinner which is baked chicken with some Chinese veggies.  Oh and I washed and cut up all the fruit.  I will admit I am tired but knowing this is all done I feel good.  Now for the week, I just need to gather my clothing and pack it up by Thursday night.  Funny thing knowing that I will be going away I have plans to get things done during the week which I would normally do on the weekend.  You would think I would do this stuff so I could be more relaxed on the weekend.  Something that I think I should pursue. 

Staying on plan and it feels good. 

Time to make my lemon water for the week

Until later…………..

I think I did good

Well again it is Friday and I am off.  I must admit it is nice only working four days a week.  Even though I must push harder to have all my work done in four days.

 Yesterday I was quite upset.  Talking with my daughter, she made a comment that really hurt.  I am trying to keep in mind that she at times gets very stressful, especially with the wedding.  Anyhow, I held onto that feeling.  With that feeling I wanted so much to eat but I didn’t.  Spoke to her again late last night and things are somewhat better.  I know at times we all say things not meaning to hurt another but it does happen.  It is just at these times I feel I try to do as much as possible for them and they just don’t care.  Then I also try to reminisce about times with my own Mom.  Wishing that things that I said I could take it all back.  I know that this is a new phase of my life that I need still to adjust, meaning that they are on their own.  The relationship between me and my daughter is good, but kind of wish it was better.  She is one tough cookie to deal with at times.  Then that is the way she is, lump or like it.

One piece of good news that I am excited about, is that I picked up my dress for the wedding.  The dress is so pretty.  I can hardly wait to get it altered and fitted just right.  I just hope I can pull it off wearing it.  Below is a picture of it, only thing is that mine is a cranberry color.   The wedding is in October.  A complete fall theme. 

http://www.jordanfashions.com/6012


Unfortunately last night there was no TOPS meeting because of the heat.  Our meeting place is at an older church parish hall and there is no air-conditioner. Plus being closed up, well the heat is intense.  So I was unable to get weighed in.  I will just have to wait until next Thursday.

Oh and next week I will be going to Delaware with my dear girlfriend’s shore home.  I am looking so forward to going away.  I know I will have a great time.  She is so much fun and just enjoy being in her company.  I just pray that the weather is nice. 

Well I finished cleaning up the kitchen and need to move on.

 Tonight I will be meeting with my daughter at the bridal shop.  Her dress has come in and she is going to check it all out.   Time is ticking and the wedding will be here shortly.

 Oh and before I forget, I did a little reading about grain free on Gwen’s blog.  I still want to read some more.  Hopefully maybe I will get some time after the bridal shop. 

 I am still using the visual about me being in a circle eating like crazy as I am also outside the circle watching all of this.  So far it is helping me NOT to eat out of emotion.  I read today in Holly’s blog about when a situation comes up to do a 180 turn reaction.  I am going to try to remember this also.  All these great tips I am trying to hold onto.  Anything and everything helps.  These people and God are guiding me, which I am grateful.

Until later…..