Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Need to snap out of it

Just finished reading some blogs and as usual they have me thinking.  So many times I just want to run away from all of this, meaning this journey of trying to lose weight.  Of course that is the easy way out for sure.   Every morning I say my prayers and finish them off with asking our Lord to please help me stay the course.  Don’t go astray, walk the path, be strong.  But at the end of the day I feel I have failed again.

Lately I have been thinking about how lazy I am.  That I don’t exercise enough.  Then I start to think of how I really don’t have time for it.  Mainly because of how slow I am with everything.  With just hubby and I at home, well you would think that life would be much easier, less time to take care of the everyday things.  But for me, well I don’t want to give the impression that it is hard but it just takes more time.  Meaning that whatever I do it takes me longer to do it.  Mainly because I am so slow.  Even with being with others, like going for a short walk I decline because I don’t want others to feel bad for me because I can’t keep up and hate the feeling that I am holding others back.  I am so slow with EVERYTHING.  Even with hubby and I, of course he knows my pace, so many times I would love to do just a little something, even he will come back and say to me, well it is too much for you so we won’t do that.  He doesn’t even ask if I would like to.  Lots of time I just feel trapped.  Trapped in this body and mind.  Plus so many times I really want to say something but fear, not so much of saying something but fear I will be unable to do it or complete it.   So feeling like this, feeling sorry for myself I just turn to the food.  I really want to snap out of this.

But how…………………..

Until later…………………….


  1. Oh Anna Marie, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. It hurts my heart to see you so discouraged. I'll be praying that the Lord takes these fears from you. The God we serve DOES NOT want us to be fearful. But as you know,I struggle with the same fears. You and I just need to stick together, and with HIS help, we can both overcome this struggle with exercise.

  2. Hi Anna Marie! New follower.

    Sweetie, you need to stop beating yourself up! You won't be able to move forward as long as you are berating yourself. Pick one thing to target for the week, and just tackle that. Success will build upon success! There are a bunch of us connected here in the weight loss blog community, and we achieve this through supporting each other. Just work on today. Forget about all of the yesterdays. Just be the best that you can be today. :)

  3. Thanks Gwen, I appreciate your words.

    I am trying to snap out of it, like everything else it will take time. I kind of think, with everything else that was going on, being busy with daughter's shower, tending to my father's needs among the usual, I guess it just getting the best of me. I keep telling myself I need to breathe.....hopefully with taking off tomorrow and really don't have too much demanding errands, I can have a nice, partial relaxing weekend.

    Thanks to you too Lydia.

  4. Hi Anna Marie. I'm a new follower, too. We've all been where you are right now so don't feel like you're the only one. I agree with Gwen, tackle one small thing daily and build upon that. You'll start feeling better in no time. If we can do this, so can you. We're all in this together. :D