I must admit it always feels good when you are somewhat back on track again. If this feeling is so good, then why do I go astray? I have been trying to answer this for quite some time. Not that I have the right answer but I think I am seeing it with different areas. I usually go off plan when I feel overwhelmed. In any circumstance, meaning the job, family issues, even with just my lifestyle. My lifestyle is not complicated. Both of my children are out and on their own, at home it is just hubby and me. So as for the hustle, bustle of everyday living has calmed down quite a bit. But I go off plan if things are not as usual, routine, etc. This I know, but lately, meaning just several weeks, things have been calm. My daughter’s shower is over, everything went well. Hubby and I just re-financed our home, which went well. So why was I off course??? Just being downright lazy and bored. That is what I have come up with.
So I have kicked myself in my butt and told myself to stop it. I don’t know, stop being bored, and stop being lazy, stop maybe feeling sorry for myself. Honestly, it occurred to me while listening/reading another blogger. She is so helpful to me, words couldn’t even describe of how thankful I am. I truly believe that God has guided me to her, which I am so grateful for. Anyhow, for right now when I am bored and I want to reach for something, just for the sake of eating, I will stop and vision myself in a circle with all this food, just shoving it in my mouth, also I am standing outside the circle and watching me inside the circle, constantly eating. I am not liking this picture and then I truly think am I really hungry? or bored?. Well, all I can say is that I did this over the weekend and this is a first in a really long time, especially for a weekend, that I actually watched what I ate, responded only when I was truly hungry. Just doing that and thinking back on it, well I feel pretty good. So I am hoping that this will last a while for me. Helping me to stay on course and stop with all the excuses.
Also too I want to thank all of you for all your support and encouraging, caring words, it means a lot to me.
Hopefully I can report a loss this week.